Trying to process

Josh's appointment was today and I heard alot of what I did in Seattle.I feel like the doctors don't know enough about microtia.When I asked about the BAHA today the doctor basically acted like he didn't really want to help us.First of all why do I want to let my son suffer when I can get him a hearing aid.Then there are the hurdles of the insurance and medicaid neither will cover the BAHA so what is the point.I feel like screaming I am angry someone tell me where to go or what to do to help me son.